Yesterday was just..painful and frustrating. We kept being stuck in the same spot and conversation inevitably occured, then she would walk away or her boat would pull away and I would find myself staring after her, my heart salavating for a taste of what we had. Conversation has resumed what it was before we were dating..except before now after a conversation with her I would wonder if she was intersted and now I know that she's definetly is not interested. And it's wierd how there are a lot of I told you so's floating around right now. I know I am very stubborn, stupid, impulsive when it comes to these things..but apparently I have slective memory as well. I don't remember people telling me to hold off, I remember people telling me "if you are not happy, do what needs to be done." Oh well...not that big of a deal...I will get over it. I am not giving up right away..but I will get over it. And to close...
"I'm sorry for everything I've said,
And for anything I forgot to say too.
These things get so complicated,
I stumble at best and mudddle through.
I wish that our lives could be simple,
I don't want the world, only you.
I wish I could tell you this face to face,
But there's never the time,
Never the place.
So this letter will have to do.
I love you."
